YOU WILL ALWAYS BE MY BIGGEST WHAT IF

“What if I call? What if I send him a message on Facebook? What if I ask him out again? What if I like his post on Instagram so that he’ll notice me? What if I give it another try? What if I tell him I love him? What if there are no more what ifs?”

Once in our lives, we meet someone who we think could be the one. But sometimes fate seems to be not on our side. Fear sets in and we begin to question our feelings or his. Instead of breaking down our walls, we tend to build another. And then we suddenly stop. We run away from the situation and leave - thinking that we are making the right decision. But are we really making the right decision when we succumb to fear instead of falling for love? Is it really worth it to keep those feelings unheard and unknown? Are you able to sleep at night even if your heart is about to burst? 

I guess you will always be my biggest what if. I have tried my hardest but the walls you’ve built are as hard as these red brick walls. And I can’t seem to find the key to the gates of your heart. I hope your heart isn’t as cold as these blue gates. So as of writing, I ask myself again, “What if I call? What if I send him a message on Facebook? What if I ask him out again? What if I like his post on Instagram so that he’ll notice me? What if I give it another try? What if I tell him I love him? What if there are no more what ifs?”

I actually have a good back story before I bought this top. It was chosen by my good friend when we went thrift shopping. She found it first and told me that it would look good on me. I was hesitant because it looked feminine. But I don’t want to be asking myself on my way home, “what if I did buy it?” Since she was really good in convincing me, I told myself "what the heck, it’s only Php40."

 I just hope that choosing to buy something is as easy as taking the leap of faith for love. But it’s not. Things are easily dispensable - feelings aren’t. So, I guess for now I am settling to my what ifs. I just hope that the time will come when these “what ifs” become “I WILL.” And hopefully when that time comes, you will give me the key to your once blue and cold heart. (wink)

GET THIS STYLE

Hat > Forever21

Top > Thrifted (Ukay-ukay) at Php40

Pants > Thrifted (Ukay-ukay) at Php35

Shoes > Thrifted at Php180

Watch > SM Accessories